From people I've known, I wouldn't count on being able to drink yourself to death. Far too many survive the attempts and it just ruins the taste of booze for them, but they keep trying. The more tangential risk-taking, the stronger the human constitution seems to get.

You could get a job on a bison farm. Try taking out your temper on one and it will kill you before you know it. They might just start following you around because of your aggression. Maybe that love/hate responsibility will become part of you and you'll love it.

Farming provides a good way to die every day, until it kills you, but you usually have a place to be buried.

I wish you good luck with your attempts to get SS. Get what you can while you can. Find something useful to do with it. God knows the government won't.