…omen of being mean, cruel, and the bane of women of color and everyone in the LBGTQIAT2S community. Here was the universe’s bookend that raised the existential tide around me. Have I actually lived a life that mattered, one that left the world a better place for having been here? Does it matter that I reported my main faculty while working on my Ph.D. for gender bias, have taken in over a dozen people who needed a place to live, protected a trans faculty in the 90s, protected a faculty at the risk of my job, and stood up to power in so many ways?